Decisions, decisions

It came to me like a flash in the shower this morning, which was rather awkward, since it happened between the soap and the rinse. Which meant that I was covered in fragrant bubbles, which is hardly the moment to have a serious thought of any kind. It seemed to be ignominious and imbued with a certain frivolity, which is hardly what that kind of thought deserved. I felt, for a small second, like I should leap out (Can you leap out of a shower?) and run through the house (nicely wrapped in a large towel, of course, so as not to shock the maid) yelling ‘Eureka’, or words to that effect. But, with some degree of difficulty, I restrained myself, telling me sternly that it would be silly and just because I thought I had a brilliant idea did not mean that I had indeed had a brilliant idea.

The idea was very simple and I am wondering why I did not actually get around to doing it before. I did try and focus once in a while, but then things came along and derailed all ideas of using a new idea and making it more interesting yet more adult and uni-directional. Instead, I have been wandering hither and yon, with some arbitrariness, no real direction and much fluff and fribble. But this time, for sure, I have determined firmly and with a no-nonsense resolve, that I shall stick to it, with a certain Superglue-based dedication. But you know me, something interesting comes along and I need to go forth and explore it, at least to find out where that road is going and how far I can travel on it.

Sigh. Yes, I know. I am not doing this deliberately, it is merely a way to make sure that it is something I really want to do and not just something I think I should do, which is worse than doing it and then finding out that I should never have done it at all. But I am sure now and I will do it, albeit with an occasional detour to things that come my way that could be fun which is just the kind of thing I have done all my life and will probably continue to do as long as I have that life.

Hehehehe. This is so typically me. Well, to cut a long and rather discombobulated story shorter than I can really make it become, I am talking about this blog. While I do not want to stop it, and enjoy it too much, since I have always been one to like talking a lot, as long as I cannot see anyone’s face while I am doing it, I think I will go on writing this blog for a while yet. But I think it is time to be less self-indulgent, as a friend of mine scorns, and find more meaningful focus. So I have decided, as of the eureka moment in the shower this morning, that I will henceforth steer whatever I write in the direction of food.

Now that matches up with two aspects of life as it is for me at the moment. For one, I have to regulate my food habits, having found that my blood sugar is too low for my doctor’s comfort and my never-ending vertigo could be exacerbated by that, and, for another, I have a veritable passion for food – if not eating it, at least making it. I read about it, I write about it and I think about it, which is in itself a sort of eating disorder, I firmly believe. And since this is what I am all about, to a great extent, why not share? So henceforth, we proceed all engines full steam ahead, on a new adventure: to create a food blog of sorts. What sort, we will find out, you and me.

Bon appetit!